“No that’s not good enough.”
“No, no one will want to read that.”
“No, that’s a tired topic.”
“Nah, do you really want to tell people that?”
“That’s too controversial, don’t write that.”
These thoughts have stopped me from clicking the “Publish” button in WordPress.
The sad part is I’m not happy when I do this. Yet I still allow the torture of censoring myself to take place.
A part of me feels like there are so many voices on the internet. Many are well thought out and I follow writers who speak the truth and speak it well. However, I don’t feel the need to comment on every happening, twitter trend or reveal every little thing I’m doing. But it has reached the sad point where I have not been telling any stories.
So I’m starting with baby steps. I’m getting my artistic mind right. I’m a spiritual woman so I’m praying for God to release me from this block. He didn’t put me here to let my gifts stay dormant. I’m also reading the necessary The Artist’s Way by Julia Cameron and challenging myself to complete the tasks.
I will flip the above negatives into positives:
“Yes, that is good enough.”
“Yes, someone will want to read it, even if it is one.”
“Yes, she or he probably spoke on it already, but your point of view is unique. Share it!”
“Yes, I want to tell people this because it is a story others may need to be inspired about.”
“Take risks sometimes. Everyone doesn’t have to agree with your thoughts.”
It sucks being in a block, mainly because as I writer I don’t want to be a has-been. And although I do write everyday for work, it’s not the same as what I’ve been able to do with this site and beyond. I miss this and I want to get that old thing back.