You have to be crazy to expect someone to always be there when you don’t treat them like they should stick around. And you have to be crazy to treat someone right and believe they will definitely stick around too. There are no guarantees. A promise can become a let down. But a let down can also open the door for something more beautiful.
No wonder this love and relationship thing drives people crazy. That is why some people are afraid to be vulnerable and open. The ride is too scary to take. They see the loops and turns ahead and step back. It’s not something you want happening over and over.
Falling out of love takes over your mind and makes it harder to do normal everyday things because something always reminds you of that person. Like the street name or that ad or that movie character that’s somehow named after her or him. But you never noticed this before. And you ask God if it is a joke but you don’t find it funny. It tears a part out of you and leaves you in awe and wondering how long it will take to get it back.
But the body regenerates luckily. Scabs form over cut wounds and if we let it do its work — stop picking at it— new skin forms over it like new. Yeah it may leave a scar sometimes, but look at it as a beauty mark of growth — healing process complete.
At some point everything comes full circle. It comes naturally and not forced. Both people will be on the same page and want it at the same time. Alignment.
Otherwise there’s no need to drag anyone along that doesn’t want it and it’s no need to be anyone’s dead weight when you could just set your self free and be life to someone else. It’s easy to go on numb to any thought of changing if it’s what you’ve settled in. But it just takes a bit of quiet reflection to meet this realization face to face.
I’m finding my way. To where? Everyone tells me about this place called inevitable. But it’s funny how everyone has different directions on how to get there. And it makes me wonder if anyone really knows what they’re talking about.
It’s been a while since I’ve felt heartbreak. And this spot I’m in right now feels pretty good until the next season, reason or maybe lifetime comes along.